the great month is back. with a difference this time. I remember i see the faces of ibu, ayah and adik for sahur and buka - now i have to company of the beloved husband. I remember ibu will nag at me if i dont wake up earlier than five to help her prepare sahur... - now i'm afraid of oversleeping because there's no one else to wake me up except myself..and i will always compete with ayah in the morning - the first person to settle on the dining table wins - it can get very noisy in the morning because me and ayah will bicker playfully about it .... and i used to take turns to do dishes and clean the kitchen with adik.

now its all different. everything has to be done by myself as part of my wifely duties. the planning, the preparation, the cooking and the cleaning all upon me. .... but i am happy to do all this for the hubby and he is sweet enough to help me with cleaning up and preparation of food. He's wonderful.

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it's half way through the semester now and it's getting hectic. i'm beginning to feel the pinch of juggling alot of duties at one go. But i've come this far and is still positive and going strong. Everything is still manageable now but wait till a little one comes along - that will be the when the time when the real test is on..... I've always admired my eldest sister. A full time teacher and with three kids - 6yrs, 4yrs and a one month old. Three "angelic" rascals to handle at one go and on top of that...alot of other 8/9 year olds to handle in school.... she's magnificent and a supermom i must say.

Teaching is not a career, it is a lifestyle you choose to commit with. This means, it is a 24hours job...well almost..... Clocking off doesnt mean work is done for the day...it means you have homework to do at home...marking, planning for lesons the next day, thinking of new teaching strategies for difficult classes, thinking of how to shackle the naughty ones... and whole lot of other responsibilities. Thinking of it scares me.Will i be able to live up to expectations as a teacher who is also a wife and in the future as a mother as well? ..whatever it is. i have to be prepared to go through what my sister is going through now. the time will come and i have to be physically and mentally ready....maybe i should add financially ready too..hee...kids are expensive to maintain..hee.

nevertheless, i know that there is one thing that will give me strength to go on. It is the passion for teaching and nurturing the young and most importantly the unconditional love for the subject ART itself. That will pull me through all the hurdles.... can't wait to come back to teaching once again.....

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Rifdi: thanks

Jlob: hey,miss you too! ...thanks for the compliment...and hmmm...did you just criticize my artwork? heehee...that's good, you spotted the imperfections of my work, shows that you have an eye to appreciate art.:)

Yihan: thanks for the wish dear. take care ok.